Saturday, February 14, 2009

TRAPPED

trapped inside myself?!?! is it possible to be trapped within oneself but thats exactly how i feel right now i just wonder if i can get out of myself and shake myself up and crawl back inside?!?!do i sound phsychic or does this happen to everyone?i feel i don know anything about myself leave alone what i want to do next.is this some sort of wierd dream where i am a stranger to myself.stayig throgh the night staring at the blank walls wondering who i really am?eerie!!!but to the world around i am as normal as i could ever be no one but me knows that there is a storm inside!!!probably its going to take longer than i expect the storm to settle

2 comments:

Curry Pan said...

ooh. welcome to growing up. relax. you'll figure it out. anyway, whatever decision you take, you have support here - dont worry.

Varun R. Nair said...

Okay.. thats very simple.. You know? the ultimate people, say yogi's try to identify themselves.. But still as i understand u re not of that kind, your issue is because, u don have the required skill to look up the world, as it is! You don ve to feel it as a psychic disorder. A small reordering can fix it up.
To speak the truth, u din understand the +'s and -'s of urself. Not everyone understands it. So u re one among the crowd. there is nothing that you could do without understanding ur behavior, ur mannerism and talent. Well then understanding these takes not so long time.
If possible try this. Everyday night, before u go to sleep, inside your eyes, as ur mind as the Audion, run a movie of what u did that day. Slide by Slide, Minute by minute. Remember not to skip off any scenes. You got angry sometimes in the day? Wen u recollect it, u can understand Y u did it. Support it wid reasons. I assure u, most of the times, where u wuld ve got angry must be worthless for an anger. When u realize this, and practice this thing for a few months, ur mind can stay stable. So u ll never feel I don know ME thing..

No 2. U stare at the wall? well, yes.. do it.. as much as possible.. this can improve ur concentration power.

No 3. Who am i in tis World? The answer is U. U need not to know who U re in this world but always remember, U re the world!
There are many ppl around you, to whom u can offer endless love.. Love them! and u ll get it back.

Also, being lonely is a very good exercise to ur brain.. Wen u re lonely, u think crazy.. Provided u use the loneliness usefully and not desperately feeling bad about urself.

Hope u dont here after, atleast